Unemployed

Romans 8:31b-32 "...If God is for us, who can ever be against us? Since he did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won't he also give us everything else?"

I'm unemployed. That's a good thing, really. I keep trying to tell myself that.

My husband got a long-awaited, long-overdue, and hard-earned promotion. No one was more deserving than him, and I'm extremely proud of and for him. But the promotion came with the price tag that we must move...again. It's the nature of the business, it is, and with new opportunities as large as my husband's promotion, comes relocation. Relocation to another state, our once-again home state of Arkansas.

Since the birth of our first child, 13 years ago, Heath and I have worked toward the goal of one day of me being able to stay at home and homeschool. I've homeschooled for years now, but I've always worked part-time, pastored, and sometimes, I've done both. It's been stressful, hard, tiring, and at times, my family didn't function so well. Now that Heath has transitioned to this new role, suddenly, all barriers have been removed! It's exciting right?

Well... the transition is complete. I'm bored. My kids are doing better than ever in school, and my house is spotless. I have time to read, to spend long periods of time in prayer, and I'm daydreaming of volunteer ministry opportunities. But in my heart, I've been discontent. How can I just sit here all day and be unproductive? Unproductive, some people may ask? That's the way I feel. Since I was 18 years old, I have been financially responsible for myself. I've worked since I was 16, taking upon a large portion even then of my financial burdens. I've been self-sufficient, self-reliant, and I've never asked anyone for anything.

And that's precisely the problem. My husband has worked his hands to the bone, literally some days, to give our family a gift, the gift of more time together, the gift of a less-chaotic household, and the gift to me of less-stressed living. He wants to be the sole provider of our family, and to extend to me what he pledged the day we were married. "All I have is your's," he said on our wedding day. All the while, I'm just trying to figure out a way to draw a paycheck.

This section of Romans 8 transitions from the former section, where Paul has explained the security of your relationship with Christ. There are no tricks, no loopholes, and no masks being worn. God is who He says He is, and He loves us so much that we willingly gave up His only son Jesus, so that we could be in a relationship with Him for eternity. And He proclaims that reasoning again here in 8:32, "Since he did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won't he also give us everything else?"

God desires to give us an inheritance and a place in His family. We don't even stop to realize how much God desires to meet our needs and to hold us in His hand. He wants to give us the free gift of salvation, and then He also wants to explain that NOTHING separates us from His love. Do we even realize sometimes that He loves us all so much? Romans 5:8 says, "Even while we were sinners..." He loved us even when we were in sin, and nothing changes that!

As I have tried to figure out the dynamic of my home while I'm not drawing an actual paycheck, my husband is happy as a lark that he is the sole bread winner. I've had the enemy on my shoulder, causing me to think that because I'm not employed, my husband will resent me. Will he see me as a moocher who sits on the sofa and eats bonbon's all day, I've wondered.

Of course he won't. He loves me, and I know it. The smell of PineSol, clean children, and pressed clothes in his closet prove I'm not sitting around all day. But the greatest thing of all, is that even when I do sit and watch HGTV for hours a day, he doesn't care. He loves me still.

That's the great thing about God too. When we're not at our best, He still loves us. Oh, His full desire is that we will work heartily to bring others to His kingdom. James tell us that works are indeed important. But faith must occupy them. But even when we're not at our best, and we just need to rest, He loves us still...just as much as He did before.



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The Struggle is Real

1 Samuel 17:32 “David said to Saul, ‘Let no one lose heart on account of this Philistine; your servant will go and fight him.’” ESV

Today I struggled on the elliptical. My husband was leaving for an overnight business trip, and have I mentioned….I’m bored here? I wanted to see him off, yet I knew that in order to get everything accomplished for the day that I needed to get my workout done early. I did my running, lifted my weights, did my cycling, and all I had left to do was 20 minutes on the elliptical. Around minute 2 though, I started the bargaining in my head…

”I’ve done enough.”

“I can make it up tomorrow.”

“I’m tired.”

“Last night we jumped for an hour at the trampoline park. That had to have burned off some calories.”

The struggle was real. Every day it seems that I have bargaining conversations with myself. Some days it’s a physically challenging for me to keep on keeping on with my workout. Every day a new excuse pops into my head, telling me that I really don’t need to complete this. And even when I’m feeling on top of the work physically, a mental battle ensues telling me that I just don’t have enough time to complete this. There is just too much to do. When I start a new challenge or a new exercise, I tell myself that I just am not strong enough to do this. I just can’t do it. When I’m side by side on the treadmill line with an athletic jock sprinting while I’m jogging at my comfortable 4.5, I tell myself I’m not good enough and I must look completely stupid. The struggle is real…but it’s only mental.

I’ve often thought about the story of David and Goliath and what made David so much better than the other thousands of Israelites who could’ve done the exact same thing as David...and much more quickly. Every day for 40 days, the Israelites would line up to face the Philistines only to hear Goliath taunt them every single day. The Israelites were afraid. Saul was afraid. Every day it seemed that their confidence was fading just a little bit more.

And then comes David. David wasn’t really there to fight. He was just sent on an errand by his father and realized what was happening. He had confidence. He knew that if he could fight a bear and a lion in order to save his sheep that he could face a mere man. But the true source of his confidence was revealed in v. 37, “The LORD who rescued me from the paw of the lion and the paw of the bear will rescue me from the hand of this Philistine.”

The Lord was able. And because the Lord was able…David was able.

The struggle is real when we face challenges of life. They may be physical challenges. But they may be financial challenges. They may be relationship challenges. They may be vocational or educational challenges. But God is able. And because God is able….we are able.

The same God that’s delivered us time and time again will deliver us now. He’s still the same God today that delivered the giant Goliath into the hands of a little shepherd boy.

What challenges do you face today? Are you focusing on the circumstance while your fear deepens day by day? Or are you focusing on the track record of Almighty God?

Encouragement for Today

2 Corinthians 12:9 “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you. For my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.’” ESV

Phillippians 4:19 “And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” ESV

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Waiting

Isaiah 40:31, “…they who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” NIV

I’ve heard it said, “Until God opens the next door, praise Him in the hallway.” Well, I’m in the hallway. The fact is, I’m waiting outside the door that He’s already revealed that He’s going to open. I have confirmation, and steps have been taken. Now that I think about it, in reality, the door is already open, but we’re just not through it all the way…yet.

My husband has been promoted, we’re moving to Arkansas, we’ve sold our house in Mississippi, and we’re living in corporate housing while my husband trains for his new position in Alabama. Yes, it’s confusing to me too.  My husband’s time is filled with appointments, conference calls, meetings, business trips, and general stuff I don’t know anything about. But the kids and me…we’re pretty bored. We don’t know anybody here, and it’s sooo incredibly hot. It’s so hot that it’s miserable. The last thing any of us wants to do is go outside.  The bright side, though, is the gym in this apartment complex. I could go on and on for days at the luxury of having a gym on site! It’s so incredibly nice, and apparently, no one else here is concerned about their health, because I typically have it all to myself!

But I’m lonely. Loneliness is just that…lonely. While I’ve been disciplined with my exercise and for the most part, with my nutrition, I’ve been depressed in my spirit. It’s not healthy. If my emotions and spiritual life isn’t on track, I’m not healthy.

And so we wait. At this moment, we’re on day 9 of a 30-day arrangement, and time seems to be only creeping by. We’ve exhausted all of the appropriate movies that are playing in the theatre, and we’ve visited a few free museums in the area. But we’re running out of options. We’ve attended a local church for worship both Sundays we’ve been here, but it seems utterly pointless to put forth much effort into building any sort of relationship because we’ll be leaving soon. What’s a girl to do? How do I stay healthy, both in body and spirit while I’m waiting in the hallway?

I’m a person that thrives in a fast-paced environment. I make quick decisions, and I’m a quick learner. I like to keep busy too, because it seems to give me a feeling of accomplishment. When I’m not busy, I tend to get depressed, feeling that I’m not being productive and contributing anything of value. But when it gets too hectic, I get frazzled easily and cave to stress.

Today, I told God all about it. And He responded. He’s faithful to do that. He brought to my mind Isaiah 40:31. In this chapter, Israel is complaining. They’re, in a way, accusing God of not listening too. And He responds to them as well. Wait. It’s very simple, but He reminds them of who He really is, and His power that He provides to us. “He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. But those who wait on the Lord will renew their strength.”

Could it be that God has given me this time to simply rest? It’s a time that I normally would never take on my own, and so God has purposely provided a time for me to simply soak up His goodness and prepare me for the next chapter of life.  The last few weeks before we sold our house were so frantic that I would go to bed at night and cry from the stress. God has given me this time to force me to be still, and all I’m wanting to do is join the fast-paced world once again.

But God wants to provide new strength. His purposes for me are perfect, and this new chapter of life promises to reveal His plan in my life. Instead of struggling against the God-given reign, I choose to joyfully walk in line with it. When life throws its stressors and frantic times my way, which it always does, I can face it with renewed energy and strength, knowing that He has equipped me.

Where are you in life right now? Maybe you’re like me and are praising Him in the hallway. Maybe you’ve just started a new chapter and need His renewed strength. Or maybe you’re at the end of a chapter and need fresh wings on which to soar.

He has promised to help you.

Encouragement for Today

Psalm 27:13-14 “I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” NIV

Lamentations 3:25 “The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.” NIV

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Maintaining

1 Corinthians 3:17, "If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is sacred. And you are that temple." NIV

Every Sunday, my family and I pass these buildings pictured in the photos. Driving through the Mississippi Delta has always been intriguing to me for many different reasons, mainly images such as these. Sprawling southern plantations, miles of crops, very few bends in the road, and abandoned buildings largely make up the landscape. You never know what's coming up next.

But the intrigue of these two buildings captivated me for months. Finally, one day, we stopped to take a photo. Every time we would pass the buildings, I wondered what could've happened. The barn surely was at one time alive with activity. I could only imagine what kind of animals this barn could've housed, providing shelter and safety from the elements. And what happened to this building below? Someone surely spent a lot of money constructing the frame of this building, with aspirations of a profitable business. But somewhere along the line, both structures faced abandon. The reasons? One can only speculate. The barn just simply wasn't maintained. As one can visibly see, it's obviously been left to itself for quite some time, judging by the height of the debris that's grown around it. The metal building? Maybe the owner ran out of money...there just simply wasn't enough to finish the job?

I can only imagine what could've been. I love old barns. If the rotting wood could've simply been replaced, and if the land around it could've been maintained, it could still be a viable shelter for farm animals. If the metal building could've been completed, it could've been a sustainable business, providing options and jobs for locals, and providing a great income for the owners.

Either way, their journey wasn't complete. The barn and the metal building are both still standing...but they're in bad shape.

Paul writes in this section of Corinthians again about how we are God's temple. And he speaks also about the Corinthians' lack of maturity. He starts them off "with milk," but still, they haven't grown to the point where they can receive the more solid "food" of the Word. They are still babes, having not grown past the infant stage. Here in this chapter, Paul continues on that just because time has passed, doesn't mean that they've grown in their spiritual maturity, and they haven't grown in wisdom. But in verse, 16-17, he reiterates that as the temple of God, meaning God lives in them, they are to care for themselves spiritually, seeking to grow in maturity, and to grow in wisdom. Therefore, they can't stop where they are! They must press on. Their journey isn't complete. No matter what...their journey isn't ever complete.

Likewise, in our physical journeys, we're never done. I know that's not fun to hear. When I was in the process of losing 90 pounds, all I could think about was my goal number. I naively thought that when I reached that goal, everything would be so much easier. Oh, but it isn't. I'm not trying to be a downer, but it's the truth. Once we reach the goal, we have to maintain it.

Think about the barn pictured above. I'm sure when it was newly constructed, it was beautiful, strong, and lovely to see from the road. But over the years, the neglect took it over. The metal building never really got completed. The owners just stopped somewhere along the way. And look at it now.

Whether we're in the middle of a journey to become healthier than we are at the moment, or whether we've reached our goal and are now maintaining, we can't stop! We must press on.

Where are you? Are you in the middle of a journey, struggling with the attitude of complacency? Or have you reached your goal and are now struck with the realization that maintaining is just as hard as losing it to begin with?Let me reassure you that it's worth it. As someone who has struggled with both concepts, I can reassure you again...it's worth it!

Where are you spiritually? Have you become complacent? Press in to Him. It's worth it!

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What Two Weeks of Being Lazy Does to Your Body

While checking the email this morning, I ran across an interesting article.

"What two Weeks of Being Lazy Does to Your Body," published by Yahoo! Health.

It was interesting to say the least, and confirmed what I already had witnessed in my own experiences. Basically, when you don't use your muscle, you lose it.

It also reminds me of our spiritual lives. When we don't interact with our Savior, lack of prayer, lack of Bible reading, our spiritual strength is diminished. We may feel overwhelming anxiety where peace used to reign. We may be easily frustrated, contrary to when we were walking closely with God.

Summertime is easy to slack off of church attendance, filling our calendars with other exciting things to do. But God is still there, and our souls still need feeding.

To read the actual article:

https://www.yahoo.com/health/what-two-weeks-of-being-lazy-does-to-your-body-124665219252.html

Peace in the Midst of the Chaos

Psalm 143:8 "Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life."

This day promises to bring chaos. Before I ever got off the mattress on the floor this morning, I knew that today would be hectic. I promise to share more details later as to why I'm sleeping on a mattress on the floor, but for now, just let me say, life is crazy busy for our family.

We're in transition...and it's a good transition. But it's crazy. I'm uncertain right now where we're spending the night. In fact, I'm uncertain where we're staying for the next 4 weeks! Yikes! Yes, yikes. We have sold our home due to the fact that my husband got a promotion and a transfer at one time. Yay! But then, we sold our house in only a day and a half! We have nowhere to go, and our new house doesn't close for another month. The relocation department doesn't seem to be in a big hurry, and they don't seem to care that we're displaced for the next 4 weeks...starting, ahem...TODAY.

We're hurriedly trying to clean our home and say goodbye to friends we've made. It's sad, hard, exciting, and did I mention...crazy, all at one time!

When I got up this morning, I immediately drank my Advocare Spark and set about cleaning, organizing, throwing out, and loading up things, frantic to get things accomplished. As my family peacefully slept, I couldn't help but feel blessed as I watched them, all in a line on mattresses in my bedroom floor. But I needed their help! Grudgingly, they got up, only to discover that we had nothing for breakfast. In my frantic cleaning mode last night, I gave all of our food away to the neighbor, secretly patting myself on the back for doing a good deed and not letting the food go to waste. I didn't think about the fact that there would be nothing for breakfast. My husband went to grab some biscuits, I barked orders for the kids to get in the tub so that I could clean the bathroom, and I hastily continued my work.

The whole time, though, I'm concerned about the fact that the relocation department hasn't confirmed our temporary housing arrangements. I'm packing to go somewhere....I just don't know where. And for all of you women out there...you know how hard it is to pack to go to an unknown place! We ate our biscuits, my inwardly cringing at the calorie count, but all the while, I kept feeling the pull of the Lord. I have so much to do, yet, I needed, wanted, longed to spend time with my Lord.

So I opened my Bible here to Psalm 143, and I rested on verse 8, "Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life." Immediately I was reminded that every. single. morning. brings me Word of His unfailing love. Long ago, I put my trust in God, and I continue to trust Him every. single. day.

Am I trusting in the relocation department? Am I trusting in two houses, made my brick and wood? Am I trusting in my ability to get it all together? Am I trusting in my bank account to pay all of the unexpected expenses?

But earlier in the chapter, verse 5 speaks as well, "I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done."

Over and over in my life, I've seen His hands at work. He's worked things out, and moved in ways that I never couldn't imagined for myself. He's blessed me beyond measure and more abundantly than I could've asked. How could I be afraid now?

He's brought us so far. He won't fail now!

What is going on in your life right now? Has your morning been hectic even before you've gotten out of bed? Invest the time to spend with Him. I can't promise that your day with go more smoothly, but I can promise peace in the midst of the chaos.

Pity Party

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